One day at a time?

I am trying to understand what people are suggesting to me during my "grieving" process, but some of them I still just cant get ahold of. Like, "Dont worry, you will be fine in time". or,  "At least you have your girls still", or this is my favorite one...."Pretty soon, it will be a distant memory"...yea, someone actually said that to me, I will not reveal who, because I want to assume this person was under the influence of crack, crystal meth or even heroine when they said, why else would someone suggest that to me?

I dont want to sound mean or ungrateful, because I truly believe that some people (probably alot of people) dont know what to say to someone who has lost a child.........I know I didnt. I do know, unfortunately.  The best advice anyone has said to me yet is my Aunt Meg; she said this to me about 3-4 days after Jaxon died, she said "Tara, you know what the only good thing about grief is?" I said  what? She said, " You cant screw it up"!!!!!!!! She is right, there is no wrong way to grieve, whatever you feel the best way to grieve is the way you should do it. Thats the beauty of it, if there is such a monster.

So basically, I am taking it one day at a time, one minute at a time, one second at time, all of it!!!!!!!!!!! I dont know what I feel from one minute to the next......I feel like my emotions are a roller coaster, literally. I thought PMS was bad?? Shit!!! That is basically a walk in the park..............

until we meet again........................